I joined a challenge at the beginning of the year through HopeWriters.com. They emailed a 5-day writing prompt for Instagram (#hopewriterlife) to help us to grow our writing skills. It was hard and fun and I’m proud to have stuck with it. For the next couple of days, I am posting my daily writings to share with you.

My hope is always that my writing may encourage, inspire or bring connection to those who join me here. Thank you for reading, it means the world to me!

Day 5: Possibility

I am not a risk taker.

I want to know the plan and all the details before I commit.

Is it more likely that this choice will end up in disaster? Will I regret taking it? What if it ends up being too much? What if I am a failure?

Anxiety and possibility are best friends in my world. I bet you can tell by now. I would love to be the kind of person who just goes with the flow, jumps off the deep end and rides on the tide…but I’m actually terrified of deep water. And decision-making. And being seen as a failure.

The unfortunate side-effect of an “easy life” with no real risks is that you grow stale instead of blooming. Doomed to never reaching your full potential or discovering who you truly are. This is NOT the legacy I want to leave behind. I pray that my children will be bold, confident, full-of-possibility humans that love Jesus and humbly serve others. They need to learn through example though…so it’s time for me to grab the pool floaties and learn to hold my breathe. This Mama is choosing to forgo a life of ease and anxiety and lean fully into where I feel Jesus leading me. No more hesitant wading in to test the waters.

I can trust my God. I know He is good. I know His plans for me are perfect, made for my good and His glory.

Read Day 1 of the Challenge